Happy TWO months Matthew!

Sweet baby boy you are two months old today!!! I cannot believe it! You are growing so big and starting to get a bit of a personality now. You are sleeping so much better and take really good naps in your crib. You take a nap every day at 10am and sleep about 2- 3 hours. Then you take another nap in the afternoon in the ergo :)

You start off in your bed every night and sleep from 7pm until 11-12. You are very demanding about your bed time. You have to go to sleep by 7 every night! After you wake at 11 you eat every couple of hours until about 6am. Then a tiny nap at 8 and then your long one at 10. I am so proud of you!

You are starting to coo now and will talk and talk. You also smile every day at me. You love getting your diaper changed and you love baths (as long as they are under 5 minutes ha!). You wear size 6 month clothing (some 3-6 months fit still) and are no longer on the newborn snap on any of your diapers.

 You eat really well but you swallow a ton of air when you nurse. Your reflux is still really bad but as long as I don't miss a dose of medicine you are fine! You still hate the car but are starting to cry less when in your seat.

Also you hit a milestone this last weekend! You can now roll over! You have done it twice now. Mommies strong boy! Words can not express how much I love you. You are such a gift and I am thankful for you each and every day. I can not believe I am so blessed to be able to call you mine.

Oh and it is worth noting that you still have your newborn fuzzies. I think the hair on your ears and shoulders is so precious. You are also still really rashy but we are keeping it under control.
Two sweet wonderful months. Oh how I love you little one!

fall is here!!!

We have had a busy week but my favorite part was probably yesterday. The first day of fall started off with a little marathon for our big first grader! The "fun run" event was to raise money for his school and every student participated. There goal was 30 laps (in an hour) and Austin did 40! They were so precious and really resembled a giant stampede. EJ just watched but really wanted to join in and Matthew slept in the ergo. I was so excited that I actually brought my camera to take some pics. Well, I forgot my cf card. I tell you my brain has gone missing these days! I did snap a few with my iphone.

After picking Austin up from school we decided to go to the park since the weather has been so nice. The boys enjoyed it but I couldn't believe Austin still had energy! Matthew slept the whole time (again) in the ergo. That boy loves to be worn!

  

Charge!!

Afer the park we went home and had the typical crazy evening :)
Today, Austin and I both woke up with colds. Tis the season. Our playdate has been cancelled and we will just be hanging out around the house getting better.
Also, I wanted to add that Matthew is now 8 weeks old. Can not believe it! He goes three hours between feeds and is a happy baby but demands to be held while he is awake. Another needy one will fit right in ha! I will try to do a picture/update post for him this week.
Enjoy the first weekend of fall everyone!!

quiet reflections

September brings so many things.
September 23rd will bring fall and a new crispness to life.
September brings 9/11, something we will never ever forget.
September 17th brings the joy of new life as on that day 7 years ago I found out I was pregnant with Austin.
September 29th is Adam's birthday. He will be entering a new decade this birthday.
September 19th brings great loss. This day 12 years ago my father took his life. This day 4 years ago I laid on a hospital bed losing yet another baby.
So much loss and so much life all in one little month. It is hard to process.
September is a very heavy month for me. It is amazing how mourning and joy are woven together into one. How life is this constant mix of both. How we are all a mix of both.
So today I reflected on all these things and let each memory settle deeply. What is life if not an ebbing and flowing?
Tonight I am grateful for all that has been, is, and is yet to come.  Tonight I am grateful for tender friends and loving family. Tonight I will simply be still and know that He is who he says He is.

i capture

just some iphone pics... :)

life is a blur

Time is changing, weather cooling, and light dimming. Fall is almost here and boy are my boys growing :)

Love his chubby cheeks, baby blues, and whispy hair!!!

This picture shows EJ so accurately. This kid LOVES life!

Austin is electrocuting EJ :) Don't ask!

Ummm....no explanation here. Austin is my silly one though! Always crazy!

RRRR matey! Sorry couldn't resist!


Love these boys!
Oh and can I just say photographing kiddos at 1/15 second is HARD. "Someone" needs a prime lens so I can shoot in low light :) Well any excuse for new photo equipment is a good one!

A happy labor day and a very smiley baby! (a very random post!)

We had a rough week last week with Matthew and had some colic that was just awful. He would start screaming at about 2pm and it would continue till about 9pm when we finally went to bed. It was exhausting and I felt just horrible for Matthew. Since I have already eliminated almost everything from my diet, I knew it was something else. He has been throwing up a lot and choking a lot, so we started him back on the zantac and within 24 hours there was a complete change. He hasn't had one fussy evening since starting the zantac! He is on a good schedule now too where he wakes up around 7 and then I change him and feed and he goes back to sleep off and on till about 9. He is awake for maybe an hour and then he eats again and takes his long morning nap from 10 till about 12:30.

 Then he wakes up for lunch, eats, and goes back to sleep for a couple hours. Then around 5 he wakes up for the evening and just looks around and watches everything. He usually stays awake till 7 when he goes to bed. He still wakes up a ton at night but goes right back to sleep so I am not complaining!

Our labor day was nice. We spent it outside since it was the most amazing weather we have had in probably 6 months! It was in the high 70's and literally felt like heaven to me. We spent the day as a family at the park and then I ended it grocery shopping :) The best part? These adorable melt-my-heart smiles that I caught on camera! He smiled for the first time on sunday so monday I was determined to catch one! They are really blurry as I couldnt look through the camera to focus because I had to look at Matthew and talk and smile at him to get him to smile back. I am just so thankful I managaed to get a few. He is such a sweet happy baby now. Loves to snuggle his mommy and loves to eat. He is in 6 month clothing now and is a serious chunk!

I had my 6 week postpartum appointment this morning and they were cracking up and his rolls. He loves to eat :) Also I am down 30 pounds and have 10 more to go. I have a lot of work to do in regards to strengthening and toning but as of this weekend I can fit into my big jeans. Barely :) But I wore them and it felt amaxing to wear something other than maternity. I have a feeling it will take me quite a while to get back to what I was. This boy did me in but he is worth every inch.

Also this post is completely filled with super long run on sentences. I offer no aplogies :)
Hope you all had a wonderful labor day and are enjoying this 4 day week!!!