sinking

Matthew 14: 25-32
Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake.When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”  “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Last night I was really needing some biblical encouragement and this story was on my heart. Right now we are in moving chaos. Chaos meaning I have to move this Sunday (I have delayed it twice now) and we don't have a place to move into yet. Our realtor is in overdrive and I am so thankful for all her hard work. However, we are moving Sunday and HAVE NO HOUSE YET. Crazy right? We currently have an application on a house and it is looking promising but they could still come back and say no. We should hear something by tomorrow. I guess it is a good thing I am good with crazy. This last year of being a single mom to three, having that third baby, mending a marriage (praise God), full time school, starting my own business, and oh yeah, life, I have found my way in the middle of crazyville more than once. Practice make perfect I suppose. However, I really want this to go well. I really want a little bit of settling now, a little bit of calm. I really want this house. I tell myself I will be fine without it, and I will be. But I really want it :)

Can I also say that trying to pack and organize a last minute move while having double mastitis and thrush is so much fun. Like I said, crazy!

So anyway, back to that scripture. When Peter starting sinking he immediately called out for Jesus to save him. No hesitation, no trying to swim or flapping around helpless. He cried out immediately. And what did Jesus do? Scripture said he immediately reached out and grabbed him and saved him.  Immediate. No talking Peter through it, no instruction, no judgement. He saved him immediately. Then, once safely on the ship, He asked Peter why he had doubted. The rescue came first.

I want a relationship like that. For me to run to Him and immediately cry out to Him when I am sinking. For me to know He will be there. No hesitation. And for Jesus, to then immediately grab me. Scripture say if we call to Jesus, we will be saved. I am so so grateful for a Jesus who saves.

So in all this, I will not break down like a person who is sinking in water and doesn't know how to swim. Instead of flailing around, I will also call out to Him for peace, strength, wisdom, and above all, Him timing in this. And you know what happens next? Yep, me too :)