let them be little

I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand.
You felt so good in it; no bigger than a minute.
How it amazes me you're changin' with every blink.
Faster than a flower blooms, they grow up all too soon.



So let them be little,
'Cause they're only that way for a while.
Give 'em hope, give them praise,
Give them love every day.



Let 'em cry, let 'em giggle,
Let 'em sleep in the middle,
Oh, but let them be little.



I never felt so much in one little tender touch.
I live for those kisses, your prayers an' your wishes.
An' now you're teachin' me how only a child can see.
Tonight, while we're on our knees, all I ask is:



Please, let them be little,
'Cause they're only that way for a while.
Give them hope, give them praise,
Give them love every day.



Let 'em cry, let 'em giggle,
Let 'em sleep in the middle,
Oh, but let them be little.



The so innocent, precious soul:
You turn around, an' it's time to let them go.



So let them be little,
'Cause they're only that way for a while.
Give them hope, give 'em praise,
Give them love every day.



Let 'em cry, let 'em giggle,
Let them sleep in the middle,
Oh, but let them be little.



Let them be little.



Happy 5 weeks sweet sweet Matthew Ryan. I can not believe it! He is now outgrowing his 3 month clothing. My little chunky monkey!! And oh my word, the looks these littles can give. I may be in for it :)

Matthew: ONE month!!

So my sweet tiny squishy is now one month old! I don't really know how that is possible!

Right now he has one or two alert times of the day but still sleeps the majority of the time. He is up every 2 hours at night. I don't mind at all though. This stage passes so quickly and I truly want to savor every second. Even the times that include screaming and middle of the night feedings. All too soon he will join his brothers in growing up way to fast...

He is a champion nurser and can finish a feeding in 5 minutes. He is growing A LOT. We are already in 3 month and some 3-6 month clothing. He is a serious little chunker :) His colic issues are getting much better and now as long as I am holding him he is happy as a lark. No screaming at all unless I put him down. Just look at the pics! ha! He loves the ergo but doesn't love the car that much. If I time it right and feed him right before we go and he is sleepy, he does great in the car. I cant always do that though and we pay for it!! 

A week ago he had an allergic reaction to something and broke out in hives. Since then he has had allergic dermatitis on his face, ears, and scalp. It is getting much better but he is super sensitive (just like ej). I cant eat any dairy at all, fresh veggies, or anything with spices. Basically I eat oatmeal for breakfast, a pb&j for lunch, and a grilled piece of meat with only salt and maybe some steamed carrots and fresh fruit for dinner. That is it, literally. It is not fun but it is worth it to me and I did it once before with ej so I was more prepared this time.

He also has reflux but we are off the zantac as that was one of the things bothering him I think.

As big as he is, he is still so tiny too. He still has his newborn fuzz all over and his sweet little feet could just kill me. So.stinkin.cute! His eyes are still bright blue and his hair is coming in blonde. I still can't tell yet who he will favor more but I am leaning toward ej still. And my favorite thing are his noises. He is so noisy all the time.  Who knew grunts and squeaks could sound so darn cute!? All in all things are going really well and I just pray that I can somehow lock away each moment in my memory. Knowing he is my last just somehow makes everything more precious. He was meant to be a part of our family but I still feel as if he is such a gift. Another sweet little miracle. So so grateful for these three boys!!!

(a picture from his newborn shoot with ej giving a quick kiss...melts my heart)

Sons are a heritage from the LORD, children a reward from him. Psalm 127:3

fresh

Clean clothes laid out the night before, a home made lunch packed away for later, a sleepy little one with crazy bed head, another sleepy little one who is very cranky, and yet another little one who is very hungry. Warm cinnamon raisin bread for breakfast eaten in a hurry, one mama who really really would love a shower (but wont get one today), one car full of car seats and little ones, and one fresh new beginning for us all!

Today was Austin's first day of first grade! It was also his first day of public school. It was also NOT the first day I have cried over my beautiful boys. I am a wreck today. I miss my big 6 year old like crazy and can not believe he will be gone for 7 hours every day. I am not a fan people....

I worry about him getting lost in the hallway walking to class. I seriously have visions of him lost and crying. I have mentioned that anxiety and I am BFFs right? Yes? Okay then.
They let you walk them in to the class the first day but that is it. I have to drop him off outside of the school from now on and he has to find his way.....without me. Without me. He is embarking on this whole new journey of life without me. Okay I need more Kleenex....brb.....
Seriously all. This.is.so.hard.for.me.
I just want to scoop him up and keep him with me forever. Adam calls me a helicopter mom. I guess I am. I am just crazy in love with my boys and want to protect them and just enjoy life with them always.
I know it will get easier but today it is not. My baby is growing up and he is not a baby anymore. He is a big 6 year old boy. Still feels like yesterday though that I learned I was pregnant with him. That I saw him on the ultrasound screen, that he was born all fuzzy and new and I got to hold him and take in the smell of him. I just know that was yesterday.
Whew okay....
Here are some pictures of my big boy on his first day...

You see is the second pic how EJ is off to the side crying? Yeah he was the cranky one! He was screaming hysterically the whole way to the classroom to drop Austin off. It was one of those really humbling mommy moments. He was tired, sad as he didn't want Austin to go, and scared that he was getting dropped off. Not the first day I had envisioned but that is life with many littles :) After drop off there was a flag ceremony where all the students came out and we watched them raise the flag and sing and say the pledge. Austin couldn't see me as there was a huge crowd but I could see him! He stayed right by the teacher lol. That is my boy. He was so brave this morning and gave me a kiss and went right in to class. Melts my heart. I know he will do great. I have no doubt about that. And we will all adjust to the new schedule too. Although WHOA Matthew was up every 30 minutes last night (his reflux is so bad thank goodness we are starting zantac today!). Mommy is tired!

So after sleeping in every day over the summer, it will be be good to get on a routine. At least I hope :)

It is a fresh new start for us all. Up next? Fall. Oh yes please!

just a little thumb sucking video :)

None of my boys have been thumb or paci lovers. Matthew, however, will suck on anything that gets near his mouth be it a thumb or a paci, or his whole hand! He is 12 days old and I just want to pause time. I want to enjoy every second of this little one while I can. They just grow way too fast!!

Matthew's newborn pictures! (picture overload)

the many faces of Matthew!

I can't believe six whole days have already come and gone! Sweet sweet baby please don't grow up as fast as your brothers have!









And a couple fun ones :)



Oh and I tried to shoot his newborn pics today (the two above were us warming up) but...well....lets just say poop happens. And lots of it :) We will try again tomorrow!