Well yesterday was a hard day for me. I start dreading the 19th of September as soon as September is on the horizon. However, this year, I handled it well and even...thanks largely to my amazing husband, had some good moments.
The 19th was the day my father passed away and it always arrives with a twinge of sadness. Last year on that day I was in the ER learning that the fate of our baby was uncertain. We ended up losing that baby later on. So the 19th is hard in most aspects. Yesterday arrived despite my strong will and I started the day with baby Tad kicking me awake. Thank God for this baby. This incredible blessing. It is amazing how life really does heal wounds. I made it to work and managed through my morning patients. Then a surprise! Adam showed up at my work with flowers in hand!! He took me out to lunch at one of my favorite places, and we had a great lunch. He is my knight in shining armor. He is my best friend and I was so grateful to see him yesterday. I got home early and snuggled my son. For all I have lost, I still have so much. For this I am infinitely grateful. God has blessed me so much. So very much.
I guess time does heal wounds, and I imagine my family has had a huge part in helping me as well.
Dad, I still miss you and I always will. I love you. I mourn that you will never know your grandchildren or my husband. I know you will meet them all one day though.